This is yours, right here. You got it? Yeah. Here we go. Oh, just right. Hi everybody, my name is Sandy Beach and I'm an alcoholic. Thank you for inviting us over. I can tell already this must be a great group with all the spirit and everything in the room. And I sit down because I've had a lot of surgeries and things are really good. But the longer I stand on my knees and feet, they get sore and then I get cranky. It no longer is a spiritual talk. You'll be glad that I'm sitting down, that's all I'm saying. I was asked to talk about the 12th step. And then at a certain point they stopped and there's going to be some very easy questions. It's what I was told. Well, if you attend a step group, then you know that the 12th step is having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps. We try to carry this message to alcoholics and practice these principles in all our affairs. And clearly the central point of the entire step is this thing called the spiritual awakening. It's the one result that the steps are designed to give us. And so all of the work that we put into is to have that happen. And in that happening, in that transformation, the rest of the step just comes automatically. You don't have to force yourself to carry the message or practice the principles that's built into the transformation. It's just that's the way it goes. So whenever I think of the heart of the 12th step, I always go back to the first sentence in the first step in the 12 and 12. And that sentence reads, who cares to admit complete defeat? That's how this book starts. Who cares to admit complete defeat? Nobody. Who wants to admit the complete defeat? That's putting up the white flag. Unconditional surrender with respect to my life. That's asking a lot, isn't it? I'm being asked to give up control and decision making over my own life. So obviously the only people that would ever do that, aside from maybe saints or something, although I'm not familiar with them, are people who have to. And that's us. In other words, we would only do it if we were desperate. And if you want to get desperate, become…