Well, hi everybody, I'm Sandy Beach, and I'm an alcoholic. It's great to be over here and see this much enthusiasm in AEA. It reminds me of when I was younger and some of the groups I attended in Washington, D.C. And I want to congratulate the group and all the people who got chips and people who did all the work. I'm going to talk a little bit about myself and then I'd really rather talk about the program. So today I looked for a couple of topics and jotted down some lines out of the big book and I always like to challenge myself and see what the hell I come up with. Very briefly, I grew up in New Haven, Connecticut. I have one sister, he's got 28 years in the program now. Nice mother and father, they took good care of us. But every time I would be at the dinner table, there's the four of us, I always saw the three of them and me. It was like I didn't really belong in the family that I was in. Nobody told me I didn't belong there, I just sat there going, well I don't fit in here. And that's a feeling that I've had for many, many years, is that sense of being apart from everything that's going on. My mother was Catholic, my father was Protestant, he converted. His family disowned him and we all went to the Catholic church. My sister thought it was fun. He just loved it, he thought the nuns were cute, he thought the Latin was cute, he thought the whole idea was just wonderful. And I sat there terrified of every single thing I was taught and saw. I saw Nazi people with hoods on and they were coming after me. And I saw everything I read, I went, oh my God, oh my God, I just saw that I was going to be in trouble, I was a sinner. I just saw it. So you can see my sister saw a wonderful place and in the same church I saw a terrifying place. So it's all what we do up in our head. And I think the finale was around 10, I looked at the crucifix very fixedly. It was as if it was speaking to me and I suddenly had like a little spiritual insight and…